I have been experiencing this since 2-3 months.I have a huge gush of negative thoughts in my mind and I remain disturbed all the time because I really want them to stop having power over me. Last month I totally went into depression. I thought of committing suicide because there is nothing I am able to do anymore.

I used to be so active and so positive all the time that I excelled in everything I did. But lately I have been failing horribly in doing just anything. Everything distracts me now. I am sometimes unable to focus on what people speak. Sometimes, their hand movements disturb me. My mind makes me feel that I actually want to disturb myself. But I really don't. Why will I? 

I want to live happily and like any other normal person. But there is not a single moment now that I stay happy. I always think about it like I won't be able to do anything because my mind itself doesn't cooperate with me. 

When I try to focus, my mind gets so much clouded with all kinds of negative thoughts telling me that I won't be able to do it and obviously I can't because those tasks require a lot of thinking. please help me. I think it's high time and I can't really spoil my life anymore. 

Please help.